Yay, I have issues D: [Saturday, April 08, 2006 )( 4:21pm] Oh noes Disorder Your Score Major Depression: Slight Dysthymia: Very Slight Bipolar Disorder: Very High Cyclothymia: High-Moderate Seasonal Affective Disorder: High-Moderate Postpartum Depression: N/A Take the Depression Test comment )( change

[Wednesday, October 05, 2005 )( 7:12am] [ mood | contemplative ] You know.. I never wrote about it Never said a word in here, or anywhere else Funny how once in my life it would have been something worthy of keeping in a journal, but I didn't even think about it. Not until now, when I'm sitting here months later, still holding her tickets in my hands Yep, still have them I don't know why, nothing very personal about them. The little black duffle is still sitting in the same spot it was when I set it down the first time that night, months ago Never did empty it out Collecting dust. 3 or 4 poptarts still in their wrapers, in the front pocket.. I don't remember what flavor they were and it seems like cheating to look. a violation Odd, that A little insignificant thing like that, doesn't seem like it should matter much how many other little things am I forgetting? There were cobwebs on the ticket folder Most of you won't know what I'm talking about Most of you probably wouldn't care Did I not write about it because I was paranoid about someone somehow finding a link to this journal? Or was I simply too preoccupied with planning and..not thinking of it afterwords? Of course not, I was a wreck Hadn't slept or eaten for how many days? Not many.. maybe 1 day of not eating, 2 tops. 3 or 4 with barely any sleep throughout the whole thing But the way back was an eternity Wasn't how it was supposed to go not at all. But was the overall consequence and after effects worth it? In the long run? I think so I think it helped Made it better and worse, too, in another way But it will be okay What do you think? I remember feeling like I failed the most important thing I'd ever done most important words I'd ever said Most important promise ever made And I failed Failed you, failed myself That isn't something to be taken lightly Its getting late. Or early I don't know what mood I was in to write this, or why I'm hesitating to go ahead and enter it right now maybe because it doesn't really tell anything But does it need to? No, no I don't think it does I remember the smile through the window and the hug..but not the last hug, no, not the last. There will be more hugs. I want more hugs. That meant more than anything. The trust, the smile, the hug I won't ever forget those The hooded sweater doesn't smell like anything anymore I know it never really smelled like you, not really It was more of me, my deoderant, and stuff But still, you wore it It still feels like a loss Silly but true People are going to be annoyed at me double returning everything. I'm not sad, not really More contemplative and..heavy Re-reading, and I notice how I say "the hooded sweater", and I think to reword it as 'My' hooded sweater But that doesn't seem right It seems more yours than it was ever mine I don't think I understand, but its true and I know that I bet this is sounding less sane by the minute Not that it will take very many minutes to read this, at all. I think it's taken somewhere around an hour to type it though I think I'll go sleep now New change of sheets, comfy bed, and dreams of you Kristin I love you 2 )( comment )( change

[Saturday, June 25, 2005 )( 2:18pm] I are teh tired. Your Excellent LJ Evil Minions LiveJournal Username favorite drink weapon of choice do you like the taste of envelope glue? yesnoprobably too much the evil ninja mastermind hellbent on world domination kr1ms0n_k1tty the bewitching and sexually ambiguous one that no one knows anything about kittyxkisses the scarysmart one, eerily calm even in the midst of chaos kr1ms0n_k1tty the tiny, seemingly-delicate one with a deadly temper and awesome strength polalis the pale, quiet one who turns out to be really, really scary starlett2 the sexy, smirking anti-villain who joins your side at the last moment koemiko the snarky punk mercenary who's only there for the money and coz they love a good fight kr1ms0n_k1tty the distant arrogant aristocrat who wants to bring down the society they were born into kittyxkisses This Fun Quiz created by charlotte at BlogQuiz.Net Free Daily Horoscopes at DailyHoroscopes.Biz ( You people want me :D ) comment )( change

Woooo. Free Money. [Tuesday, June 14, 2005 )( 3:12am] [ music | Crossfade - Colors ] I don't know how many of you even read this anymore, since I never update at all. Anyway, I signed up for this site the other day, which supposedly pays you for searching from it, in return the advertisers pay the site to advertise for them. I know it sounds really phoney, and there are sites out there like this one that are, but I've read every page on the site, and it seems pretty legit. I also haven't been spammed since signing up. Anyway, if any of you would like to check it out, or just help me out. Click this link and do a search (use real words, or it won't count. No "awlekrjakj wkerj"), and supposedly I get $1 per search you guys do. http://www.ibux.net/?r=11893 3 )( comment )( change

Quiz thingy [Saturday, June 04, 2005 )( 8:22pm] 1. Think of the first word that comes to mind when you think of me. 2. Go to images.google.com and search for that word. 3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results (don't tell me the word). 4. Put this in your own journal so that I can do the same. 4 )( comment )( change

Haaha [Saturday, January 08, 2005 )( 4:18pm] Wo0t wo0t Your Inner Doggie by atashii Username Age Name Dog Fur Colour Was silky white, now tie-dyed Doggie Accesory Bling bling. Eye Colour Practically black What your owner says about you "Oh. THAT dog." Favourite doggie treat My own crap. Odd doggie trait Hyperactive. Odd doggie habit Has own stuffed animal and sleeps with it. Percent of affection for master: 26% Times almost killed by dumb doggie mistake 92 Quiz created with MemeGen! Emo Poet by atashii Username Age Fave Colour Your emo poet pen name Soul of Black What your poems are about How my mom/dad is a MEANY! -cries- Title of your best poem Daddy Don't You Care? Line from your best poem "There will always be a void in my heart." Where/When you write When my mom wont let me go out. THAT WHORE. What your fan following is like I know they secretly hate me..who doesnt? Your inspirational emo band The Juliana Theory What people think of your poems A lot of people think they suck. Number of poems you have written 418 Quiz created with MemeGen! annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd. Your Inner Kitty by gifted_one Username Fur length Long Colors Light Gray, blue eyes Kitty accessories None Favorite thing to say "Pet me! Pet me!" # of lives you have left 9 Quiz created with MemeGen! 1 )( comment )( change

No power outage? Maybe. [Wednesday, January 05, 2005 )( 5:05am] Seems I'm not going to lose power after all, seeing as how it's now 5:30 AM and it hasn't even flickered more than once. Woot woot. in other news...Here's pictures from the last ice storm. ...and other random pictures of me/my house/stuff. I won't include them here because they are quite large. (littlest is 184KB, biggest is 600 something) You can take a look at them here: http://personalpages.tds.net/~reddearth/pics/house/ And no, scan0008 (both pics in it are of me) aren't recent. 4 or more years ago. 6 )( comment )( change

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